Idle Time


Time waits for no man. Timing is everything. There is never the right time to do the right thing. Right on time. Time flies when you’re having fun. There’s no time like the present. A race against time.

Time and time again, I find myself rushing to be somewhere by  a certain time. Or sometimes I start planning out my day in my head before I jump out of the bed. I even catch myself in the midst of conversations with an imaginary countdown timer, and then calculate how much time I spent with that one person.  As my brain operates at 100 mph, and I think I’m getting things done only to find out that the simple tasks goes through the day undone. Procrastination…I’ll tell you about it later. No, really that is part of my identity at this point. It never stops, I never stop running, my brain never stops thinking, and the list goes on and on.

I have no more idle time, and I feel kind of like a mad man. I think too much to plan any idle time as an opportunity to knock down another task on the list, make phone calls to subcontractors about coordination meeting while driving, reading emails at stop lights. I actually forget to breathe sometime while calculating the time in the day. In light of all of this, I learned not to trust my head and to put things on paper. My thoughts became organized; I strategically used my time throughout the day to effectively get  ‘er done. But most importantly that urgency needs motivation and prioritizing. This entire time I had a false sense of urgency; I was rushed, panicked and determined to knock down goals. The only good from that was determination.

I can tell you all the wrong ingredients for urgency from experience, but the journey continues to find or create the ingredients to true urgency.  That I will save for part 2.